just the other day i was on my way to work, i overheard this conversation with a 17-18ish girl and a guy, she said,"now i'm taking private Os, if i fail dunno how already, actually also not i wanna study la. my parents force me to study. if they didnt force me i also dont wanna study already la."
i was thinking," WTH!" there's so many unfortunate kids in the world who dont even have the chance to study! lets not talk about whether they want to study or not, say the most extreme cases like in africa, they probably dont even have a proper school in those villages! singaporean kids are like so fortunate but most of us wont see it till something like bad happens.
then i realize that, maybe i havent' grown alot, but i've grown quite a bit.
please watch it! i bet you wont last the entire video. btw, i couldn't make it to the end. its too sick. those people should be dealt the same way. sick bastards.
the other day i was thinking about my life and my future career. cuz i was really tired of this attachment. not because i dont like it. but i'm gonna spend my entire life doing this, i should have the stamina for it.
i dont know if its the people in the hospitality industries, but they always talk about having the passion and enthusiasm. PASSION and ENTHUSIASM. those are really strong words. in the dictionary, the put passion with "the sufferings of martyr". ask me if they're strong words.
passion: 1. any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate. 2. strong amorous feeling or desire; love; ardor. 3. a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything: a passion for music. 4. the object of such a fondness or desire: Accuracy became a passion with him. 5. an outburst of strong emotion or feeling: He suddenly broke into a passion of bitter words. 6. the sufferings of a martyr.
that kept me thinking for some time. do i really have the passion? do i? know what? i couldn't find an answer.
at least i was sure that i didnt hate being on the front line of service! but i'm really not sure if i have what it takes to last me my entire life.
i have a dream, a dream to set up my own restaurant and pub kinda thing, with live music and all. makes me feel that i have to work the service line to get enough experience to make the cut. i know i have quite a good standard(from guest comments and my superiors). but do i really have to?
i realize from my attachment that i really didnt loathe office jobs as much as i thought i would. is that a sign?
you know i'm not getting any younger. i'm NOT SURE if i still have enough time to try out other lines. if i ever do, i'd have to start all over and over and over again. that's what's so sickening.
i really like those chilling sessions with good wine and cigars. not to mention good company. really let me slow down for the week and think about stuff i wouldn't have a chance to think about. but i just have ONE qualm.
CHIEN, DONT KEEP WAKING ME UP IN WEE HOURS.
love you guys!
of course i love the other people who are reading, and not reading as well!
Rocked Out @
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Sunday, March 09, 2008
you cant believe everything's your fault, unless you also believe you're all powerful.
i had a dream, i hope it was a deja vu.
i like the kid that lip sync the last line of chorus!
